[Faster than a Kiss/キスよりも早く] The heartbeat of my hurt heart[完结]

Nessissta7

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[j]4642NZ RS3J2U[/j]A/N Hello everyone! This is my first fic on "Faster than a Kiss". I hope you will like it. I had a great time writing it ^_^ By the way, I dedicate this story to my dear sister who wanted to read a fic based on her favourite manga! And she gave me the main idea for this fic.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J35[/j]So, if you have some free time, I will be very happy if your spend it reading this story!
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The heartbeat of my hurt heart

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[j]4642NZ RS3J3X[/j]Something was wrong. She could feel it.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2U[/j]Sensei didn't act like his old self. She felt that the distance between them increased and she had no clue why.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3H[/j]Ever since she finished school he started avoiding her and treating her like she was some kind of a common friend. But the relations between Teppei and him remained the same.

[j]4642NZ RS3J3A[/j]She was 18 now. Two years had passed since the day they got married. She thought that everything was alright and their family life would develop more and more but it seemed as if he wanted to put a bright red cross on her and live his life by himself.

She needed to find a job. Now when she had finished school she could afford it and help sensei with the providence.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J38[/j]Kaji didn't know why but she also felt as if her beloved sensei was trying to push her in Kurosawa's arms. It became a habit to meet him in the places where sensei had sent her to deal with some business. At first she thought that it was a coincidence but those accident meetings repeated almost every day.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J44[/j]When she asked sensei what he planned by trying to make a couple of Kurosawa and her, he just smiled and said that they suited each other. Yes, he smiled but sadness in his eyes couldn't go past her. Kaji told him not to push her away from him and he answered that he never tried. That night she cried into her pillow.
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Something was definitely wrong and she didn't know what to do.

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OooooO

She was a grown young woman now. He was madly in love with her though he didn't plan it to happen in the first place. He understood that he couldn't be her real husband. He was some kind of a tutor to her and little Teppei and the marriage was only an excuse to make her stay in the town and not let her make stupid things.

Yes, he knew it, but still he had fallen for her. He loved her not as a sensei loves his students. She wasn't his student anymore.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3I[/j]He loved her as a man. A man, who was 8 years older than her, who had a terrible past and who didn't have any rights to love an innocent girl like her. She deserved a better man, someone who could really make her happy…someone her age. Maybe even Kurosawa-kun. That guy liked her and could make her fall in love with him if he, Kazuma Ojiro, would let him.
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Sooner or later she would leave him anyway. It was better to start pretending and show her that he didn't love her. She had told those words to him so many times and still he couldn't believe that someone as pure as her could love someone as terrible as him.

There she was…smiling at him from the next room. She was beautiful as at the first time he met her. He didn't want to hurt her with the way he loved her. She deserved better than that.
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His life with this girl was a struggle against himself. He witnessed as she was turning from a teenager into an attractive beautiful young woman. He was longing to embrace her, to feel her warmth, to whisper the words of love into her ear, to get lost in her big innocent yet confident eyes, but as the time was passing by he felt like if he did those things, he would never stop, he would never let her go from his arms, he would never give her to someone else, especially that Kurosawa guy. This love was driving him crazy. He felt fear when he hadn't her near and he felt scared when she was close to him. Scared—because he didn't trust his self-control anymore. There were times when it betrayed him and he ended up doing terrible things to her….like marking her with his kisses on her neck. Only animals could make such low kind of things. And he…was an animal, a lustful animal who hunted his prey.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J40[/j]No. He needed to put an end to that. He didn't deserve her and he needed to let her live her life without his interference. It was impossible that she loved him! She had a feeling of gratitude towards him, that must be it, because he gave her and her little brother a helping hand when they were on the edge of despair. And how could an 18 years old girl love a 26 years old man, who was her English teacher and who had the darkest past the humanity had ever faced?

[j]4642NZ RS3J3L[/j]No! He needed to tear out his feelings for her from his heart. It would be better for both of them. If he would be giving her a cold shoulder, soon she would understand what kind of a person he was and that her feelings for him wasn't love.
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So he decided to treat her like no one to him, for her own sake.
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OooooO

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[j]4642NZ RS3J3P[/j]He left not even saying goodbye. He wrote a letter to her that told that he had left for teachers' conference in Osaka, and he never wrote when he was coming back home.
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His attitude hurt her so much that the first thought that came to her mind was packing her bags, take Teppei and leave sensei's place forever. He didn't care for them; she could tell it by the way he acted. What was wrong? Did she do anything that made him angry with her?

[j]4642NZ RS3J3T[/j]Why did he become so cold to her? Some time ago he was gentle and caring, so why was he so cruel and distant now? He was offending her with such treatment. She had never thought that their relations would face such troubles. It hurt so much thinking about his coldness to her. How many tears did she cry in her pillow because of his indifference?
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2O[/j]She missed him…his old him. She missed the person that became the world to her, she missed that secure feeling when he was near, and she missed his smile, his voice and even teasing. She couldn't take it anymore. Why was loving him so painful? Did it mean that she was a burden to him, that it was unbearable for him to live with her and he was just waiting till she graduated to get rid of her?
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[j]4642NZ RS3J45[/j]But what did his words of comfort mean then? Why was he so overprotective about her during all that time? And what about his words of affection towards her, those marks on her neck, those gentle embraces? Was it all an   ***下载/download/otomedream/ダウンロード***   and lie?

Kaji dropped to her knees and cried. She was losing a person she treasured so much again. Her heart was burning with misery as she clenched his letter in her fist. It seemed like he told his last goodbye to her.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J34[/j]At that moment a front door opened and Ryuu-sensei and Teppei walked in. When the little boy saw his sister sitting on the floor and crying, he ran to her and hugged her tightly.
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"Buncha? What's wrong? Why are you crying?"
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She didn't answer. She had no strength to. A letter fell from her hand as she hugged Teppei in return and sobbed into his small shoulder.

[j]4642NZ RS3J2I[/j]Ryuu-sensei approached the girl. Concern and worry were written all over his face. He picked up the   ***下载/download/otomedream/ダウンロード***   from the floor and read the content. His eyebrow arched in surprise when he finished reading the letter.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2Q[/j]"Why didn't he tell me about the conference?" he asked no one in particular.

[j]4642NZ RS3J3Y[/j]Kaji didn't answer, she sat where she was a minute ago hugging the only dear person that she had in her life.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2L[/j]"Ne, Fumino-san? Why are you crying? Maybe I'm not the best psychologist but sometimes it's better to share your worries with someone. You can use me as a friend who is always ready to listen to you" he said softly and placed a reliable hand on her head.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2V[/j]She looked up at the young man with her tearful eyes.

[j]4642NZ RS3J2K[/j]"Teppei, could you please go to my apartment and watch some cartoons till I come and pick you up. I need to talk to your sister".
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A 6 years old boy looked at his sensei and nodded sadly taking a key from the guy's hand.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2M[/j]When they were alone, Ryuu-san helped her to stand up and sit at the table. He made some hot sedative tea and gave her a cup of it. Then he sat across from her and asked.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3B[/j]"So, why did he do it?"
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The girl frowned.
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"I don't know. He acts like he doesn't want to know me"
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[j]4642NZ RS3J30[/j]"I've noticed that he has changed. But I thought it was one of your family fights, so I didn't pay attention".

[j]4642NZ RS3J3I[/j]"He has changed since my graduation. I don't know why. He became very distant, he doesn't talk to me much, he avoids my presence, always leaves me behind and tries to couple me with my classmate Kurosawa-kun. Though his relations with Teppei remained the same. And when I returned home today from finding a job, I noticed a letter on a table. It seems that he wants me to get lost".
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The girl chuckled bitterly.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3J[/j]It was terrible to see her so hurt. Her eyes were emotionless, her face was blank and her words sounded like it was all true.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J36[/j]"Don't think about that!" he said finally drawing her attention. "He loves and cares about you, guys. I can't believe that he has changed so much. I'm sure it's a misunderstanding".
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3D[/j]"Thank you for encouraging me, sensei" she smiled weakly "but I think I'd better leave this house. I can take care of Teppei and myself from now on. I found a job, so it won't be that hard-"

"Stop that nonsense!" Ryuu-san hit his palms against the table. "If you leave, you will do what he wants you to do. Don't even think about it! If he is so stupid to make you suffer so much, then he will face my fists. But don't play his game. He thinks that when he comes back you will be gone already. No! Show him that you are not that easy to defeat! Make him believe in your loyalty".

"I don't think that it will help…"

[j]4642NZ RS3J3Q[/j]"You will never know until you try!" the young man took her hand in his and asked looking seriously into her eyes.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2J[/j]"Fumino-san, do you love Maa-kun?"

[j]4642NZ RS3J41[/j]Her emotionless eyes showed a little weak spark for a second.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2I[/j]"Yes, I do and that's why it hurts so much".
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He rubbed her hand gently and answered with a warm smile.

[j]4642NZ RS3J43[/j]"That's why you can't give up now. You must melt his cold heart with your love. So, please, stay. Don't worry; I'll help you guys, with everything you need until he comes back. Just don't lose hope. I'm sure he loves you too but something bothers him and that's why he acts like that. It's the most suitable answer to his strange behavior, that's what I think".
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3K[/j]Kaji looked at his kind face sadly, but a feeling of gratitude could be read in her big brown eyes.

"Thank you, Ryuu-sensei. If not you, I don't know what I could have done".

"You are welcome, Buncha. By the way, if that Kurosawa guy bothers you, just tell him the truth that you are a married woman" he smirked but his eyes were smiling at her.
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"I will".

She didn't leave sensei's home. Ryuu-san's advice was like a saving boat to her. He helped her to analyze everything and come to the conclusion that it really would be pointless to do what sensei was waiting from her. She loved him after all and she wanted him to know that.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3Q[/j]A week later she met Kurosawa at the book store. He was trying to impress her again with his great experience in reading, but then she had finally told him the truth. He was shocked to know that sensei was her official husband. She left him standing alone in a total astonishment and disbelieve from her words.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2I[/j]During all that time sensei was away, she waited for his arrival every day and night. She got a job in a nice café. Ryuu-san offered his help to look after Teppei when she was at work.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2T[/j]And so 3 weeks had passed. It seemed like it had been a whole year without him.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2U[/j]And on the 4th week he came back without a warning. She wasn't at home when he walked in the apartment, neither were Teppei and Ryuu-san.

[j]4642NZ RS3J33[/j]He entered the room and noticed that everything remained the same as before. She and Teppei were still living in his apartment even after his rude attitude. He really was sure that when he came back, they would be gone. Because no one could keep on living with someone who had betrayed your trust.
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He was surprised to see a plate of onigiri on the table in the kitchen. There was a note.

"Dear sensei,
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2R[/j]Welcome back, sorry for not meeting you, Teppei is at the kinder garden and I'm at work. Please eat those onigiri that I have made especially for you.
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See you in the evening,

[j]4642NZ RS3J3X[/j]Buncha"
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2I[/j]Something tightened in his chest. She was waiting for him after what he had made her go through. He felt so guilty. How could he face her after 3 weeks of absence and 2 months of ignorance? She should have hated him, but instead of that she was waiting for him and even cooked onigiri for him .
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2Z[/j]He took a bite o a rice ball and a gentle smile touched his lips. It had a taste of love and care. Her cooking skills had improved.

[j]4642NZ RS3J37[/j]The young man changed, took a shower and sat in the living room waiting for his family's return.

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[j]4642NZ RS3J3D[/j]Every day she cooked onigiri for him and left them on a table in case he came back when she was at work. But he wasn't coming.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J36[/j]It had been 3,5 weeks and still she had no news about him. But she didn't give up.
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On her way back home from work she met Kurosawa. He wanted to talk to her, but she said that she had no time for this. Then he told her that if sensei would ever offend her, she would be always there for her to give her a helping hand. She just smiled and answered that it would never happen because sensei cared about her and he would never make her cry.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2U[/j]When she came home, the door was unlocked. She thought that it was because Ryuu-san brought Teppei home, but when she entered the apartment and saw sensei's shoos, her heart skipped a beat and her eyes widened in disbelief and hope. She quickly took off her boots and jacket and ran into the living room.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3R[/j]There he was, lying on a couch fast asleep. He looked exhausted but refreshed.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2V[/j]Her gaze softened as the tears came to her beautiful eyes. She knelt beside him and looked at his sleeping peaceful face. His glasses were still on his nose and his messy hair was falling on his closed eyelids. He was so handsome in his sleep. Fumino brought her hand to his face unconsciously to take away a little too long forehair from his eyes when a loud child's cry of joy interrupted her innocent intention.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J44[/j]"Maa-kun! You're back!"
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The girl jumped away from sensei's side and stood up quickly, trying to control her blush.
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The older guy's eyes flew open when he heard Teppei's voice. His face coloured with a bright smile as he stood up and took the boy under his arms and lifted him in the air.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3F[/j]"Hey, Teppei, you've grown a little!"
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[j]4642NZ RS3J30[/j]Ryuu-san approached the startled girl and gave her a reassuring smile.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2O[/j]"Maa-kun, why don't you hug Buncha? She was waiting for you so much" the little boy asked blinking innocently.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J37[/j]The English teacher put the boy on the floor and turned to the girl who was looking at him shyly and unsurely.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J41[/j]He came to her and put a hand on her head. His lips formed into a brief smile.
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"Tadaima, Fumino-san"
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"Okairi, sensei" she answered weakly.
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Ryuu-san noticed a tensed atmosphere between the two and decided to ease it a little.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2X[/j]"Hey, why didn't you tell me about that conference? You could have warned me that you were leaving".
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Grey-blue haired man turned his head to look at his friend.

[j]4642NZ RS3J3V[/j]"I didn't know about the trip myself. I was told about it in the morning and I had to leave at noon. I had no chance to inform you".
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2R[/j]The rest of the evening had been decided. Ryuu-san and Buncha prepared the dinner while sensei and Teppei were playing in the room.
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OooooO

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The night had fallen on a town. The girl was tossing and turning in her sleep and the next moment she woke up suddenly with a silent cry. When she recognized the surroundings, she sighed heavily and buried her face in her palms.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2P[/j]She couldn't take it anymore. The thought of losing a person she treasured so much haunted her even in her dream.

[j]4642NZ RS3J42[/j]The girl sighed again. She glanced at her brother who was sleeping peacefully. She smiled weakly. There was no way she could fall asleep this night again. She was afraid that a bad dream would repeat or even worse…it would come true.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J33[/j]Kaji wanted to feel secure; she wanted to feel safe and protected. She was afraid…afraid of so many things that could happen in her life. The only person who used to give her that feeling of comfort was sensei. But ever since his arrival he hadn't spoken with her. His indifference was killing her slowly and painfully.

[j]4642NZ RS3J3I[/j]Ryuu-sensei told her to be patient before he left for his apartment. She tried, she really tried but when sensei hugged Teppei, wished them good night and went to his room, closing the door behind him, she felt as her heart broke into two pieces.
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She thought that everything would be alright when he came back. But it wasn't. He continued to treat her like a stranger.
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Kaji swallowed a lump that came to her throat and lay down trying to get some more sleep. But after 30 minutes of tossing and turning she understood that insomnia had introduced itself to her.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2Q[/j]When she was a little girl, she used to go to her parents' bedroom and ask them to sleep with them if she couldn't sleep that night. And when her parents hugged her in their sleep, she could easily relax and fall asleep too as she felt warm, secured and loved.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2Z[/j]Sometimes Teppei also had insomnia at nights but when he cuddled to her and listened to her gentle lullaby, he could drift away in a world of dreams after that.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3I[/j]She understood that she wasn't a child anymore but she still longed to feel that warm comforting feeling that would chase her fears away. Teppei had her who could hug him in his sleep and protect him from bad dreams.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2O[/j]And she…she had no one. Their parents were "stars" and they couldn't comfort her anymore as they used to do it. The only person who could help her to get rid of those bad dreams and thoughts was sensei. But…what if he didn't want to help her anymore? Could it mean that she really was all alone in this world?

[j]4642NZ RS3J40[/j]Silent tears rolled down her pale cheeks but she quickly brushed them away. Kaji got up soundlessly in order not to wake up her little sibling, and walked out of the room.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J44[/j]There she was…standing in front of sensei's room. She unsurely opened it and walked in, closing the door carefully.
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The girl was scared. What if he got mad with her when he found out that she had sneaked into his room without permission? She was afraid of his reaction. But still it was better than being haunted with nightmares.
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She came closer to his bed. He was sleeping almost soundlessly. The only thing she could hear was the sound of his steady breathing. One of his hands was above his head and the other one was lying on his stomach. A blanket was somewhere at his feet.

[j]4642NZ RS3J3P[/j]The girl smiled. He wasn't a calm type of a sleeper. The moonlight was coming from the window illuminating his silhouette. He looked so young and boyish in his sleep. You could never tell that he was a 26 years old man. Maybe it was because of the absence of his glasses? It was rare moments when he was without them but when he was, Fumino liked him more like that. She thought that it was a crime to hide those beautiful deep-blue eyes of his behind two thick pieces of glass.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2K[/j]She really wanted to look into his eyes right now. Some time ago their gentle and caring gaze could make her stronger. But lately they were hurting her with their indifference.
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She had been looking at him for quite a while, not daring to do anything. Her body was tired and exhausted after a hectic day, but her mind refused to give her a needed rest.

[j]4642NZ RS3J2R[/j]She didn't know how on Earth she bent over him and shook his shoulder. It was a reflex, but when two deep-blue eyes opened slowly and focused on her sleepily but not without a confusion in them, she understood what she had done.
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"Fumino-san? Is anything wrong?" he asked politely sitting up in his bed and rubbing the sleep away from his eyes.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3Q[/j]She lowered her head due to the embarrassment. How could she tell him the real reason why she was in his room right now?

[j]4642NZ RS3J2X[/j]"Nothing, sensei. Sorry for disturbing your rest".

[j]4642NZ RS3J3I[/j]Her voice was shaking and he noticed it.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3S[/j]"Tell me the truth, Fumino-san".

[j]4642NZ RS3J3A[/j]She bit her lip bitterly hearing his serious cold tone.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J40[/j]"I…it's really nothing, sensei" she tried to smile but failed. "I'm really sorry for waking you up. It was really stupid of me".
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And she turned quickly to exit the room but a firm hand on the door stopped her from doing so.

[j]4642NZ RS3J2N[/j]"I won't let you leave until you tell me what you were doing in my room in the middle of the night?"

[j]4642NZ RS3J45[/j]The stern tone of his voice behind her made her tense.

[j]4642NZ RS3J3N[/j]So, that was the reaction she was so afraid of. It seemed that she really had no choice but to tell him the truth.
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"I had a nightmare and I unconsciously came to you, because you are the only person I feel protected with. When I was younger, I used to go to my parents' bedroom when I had a bad dream, but now I have no opportunity to do it anymore. Sorry, it was really stupid of me to disturb your sleeping because of my weaknesses".
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2K[/j]When she told those words she tried to walk out of his room, but his hand was still blocking the exit.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J42[/j]"Why don't you let me go?" she asked weakly with trembling voice. "I have already apologized. Why are you still angry with me, sensei?" a hushed sob escaped her throat as she lowered her head and shut her eyes tightly.

[j]4642NZ RS3J2S[/j]She was crying…and it was his entire fault. What was he doing? He swore to protect and never leave them, didn't he? So why was he hurting her so much? Was his cautions worth of the precious pearls of her shining tears? She was crying because of him. She came to him to get some coziness from the person she trusted and what did she get? The rudest and the most indifferent treatment. He wasn't angry though, but she thought he was.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J35[/j]Now he wasn't just angry, he was mad with himself. All his good intentions towards her future ended up to be the reason of her misery and distress. She didn't want to leave him even after everything he had done.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J37[/j]Her sobs were getting louder and louder and he was the cause of them. What a terrible kind of a person he was! Even if he dropped to his knees begging for her forgiveness, he knew that it wouldn't be enough to expiate his fault.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3Q[/j]She felt so empty within yet so much in pain. He was silent and it was the worst. She couldn't dare to look at his face. She was too afraid to see his expression. And she couldn't escape because he blocked the door. She felt like a butterfly trapped in a spider's web. It was a bad idea to come here after all. He was as cold and distant as before.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J42[/j]The next moment Fumino felt as she lost a sense of gravitation. Something strong and warm was holding her and when she looked up, she saw sensei's blank face. He was carrying her bridal style towards his bed.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J41[/j]The girl's eyes widened in shock. What was he doing?
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As he laid her fragile body on the sheets, he covered her with a blanket and lay down next to her, facing her.
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His strong arms wrapped around her shoulders and waist, pressing her to his firm chest. She felt as his face buried itself in her long silky hair.

She didn't know what to do. Her body was paralyzed with total surprise and confusion. Her heartbeat was rapid and her cheeks were bright red.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3M[/j]His hushed voice in her ear released her from her stupor.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3D[/j]"Just this once, because you need it"
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What was he saying? Did it mean that he was doing it because of sympathy?

[j]4642NZ RS3J3I[/j]Kaji gritted her teeth. She didn't want his pity! She began struggling against his embrace but he didn't let her go.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3W[/j]"Why are you doing this to me, sensei? Why? I know that I'm not the best wife but I am trying my hardest. So why are you hurting me so much with your cold attitude? If you don't want to hold me now, it's better if you let me go now".

He was silent for some minutes before he lifted his head from her shoulder and looked at her seriously.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3A[/j]"I'm 8 years older than you-"

"It doesn't matter!" she shook her head glaring at him. "If you were 18 years older than me I still wouldn't care!" the girl shouted at his surprised face.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2N[/j]Tears of anger were forming in the corners of her eyes as she was looking at him with burning fire in her brown orbs.
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"I want you to be happy-"

But he was interrupted again.

"Stop telling that nonsense, sensei!" her voice was filled with hurt and annoyance. "How can I be happy when you are pushing me away?"

[j]4642NZ RS3J2R[/j]He was speechless. She was burning with determination and her words sounded so truthful. Did she really love him that much? Him of all good guys around!
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2S[/j]Her broken voice interrupted his train of thoughts.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3A[/j]"Why can't you understand that I love you?"

[j]4642NZ RS3J41[/j]His face expressed no emotions and it made her even angrier. He released herself from his hug roughly and quickly, not letting him to react, and sat on her knees just beside him. Her hands were on his chest, pinning him to the bed.
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He was so startled by her sudden action. His blue eyes widened as he looked at her as if he was trying to understand what she was planning to do.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2I[/j]Her broken voice sliced his heart painfully.
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"You still don't believe me. Why? Why are you so heartless? I have already told you that I don't care about our age difference. 20, 30, 40 years…it doesn't matter to me even if you were 50 years older than me! I would still love you!"
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3S[/j]Her body began shaking. She lowered her head hiding her face behind thick bangs.

[j]4642NZ RS3J3A[/j]He felt as something wet fell on the T-shirt of his pajama. He understood immediately that it was her tears. The next moment he heard a heart-rending sob that escaped from her mouth. It made him bit his lip bitterly and take his eyes away from her.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3X[/j]It was his fault she was suffering so much. He couldn't let her stay with someone who had made her feel so hurt and lost. She deserved a better man, not him.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J41[/j]"Idiot!"

[j]4642NZ RS3J3H[/j]He looked at her with surprise again. That word of hers sounded as if she answered his thoughts.

[j]4642NZ RS3J3U[/j]"You are a stupid idiot!"
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3Q[/j]Kaji raised her head and showed him her tearful eyes with desperate expression.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2N[/j]"How can I make you believe that I want to be with you, that I love you?" She hit his chest with her small fist.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3T[/j]He groaned but didn't say anything. If she wouldn't stop it now, he was sure he would lose his self-control. And it was dangerous for both of them.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J30[/j]She kept on hitting his chest and complaining about his heartlessness until her hand fell to her side and she became silent.

Even in that heartbroken state she looked gorgeous. Her nightgown slipped a little to one side, revealing her beautiful round shoulder. Her messy hair and her heavy breathing…Did she know how extremely attractive she was right now?
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[j]4642NZ RS3J31[/j]He knew that the situation was not the best, but he really enjoyed the view of the girl that was sitting beside him.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2K[/j]He needed to tell something, anything! Oh, how he wanted to be with her, to hear her voice, to feel her warmth, to take her in his arms and never let go. But if there was an opportunity for her to have a better life, he would rather stay silent, though it was unbearable for him to do.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3Z[/j]Yes, he loved her with all his heart but it didn't change a fact that she still needed someone better than him.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2M[/j]Her next actions broke his chain of thoughts. He felt as she bent over and lay on him from her sitting position. Both her hands were on each side of his head and her face was centimeters away from his.

[j]4642NZ RS3J3W[/j]His eyes rounded in disbelief from what she was going to do. Their eyes locked for a second, before the girl closed a small distance between their faces by landing her lips on his.
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His heart almost stopped beating. She was kissing him! His body felt numb as his brain refused to give impulses to his limbs. Her warm soft lips were caressing his so gently and carefully. She decided to give her first kiss to him,   ***下载/download/otomedream/ダウンロード***   it become their first one. Her silky long hair was brushing his face, neck, arms—everywhere where it was falling on. That pleasant ticklish sensation was so new to him. He wanted to bury his hand in that luxury brown hair of hers and feel it against his fingers. But he couldn't as he was lying there almost unconscious from the shock she had forced him to face.

[j]4642NZ RS3J2Z[/j]Her lips…they were so shy and innocent. He noted that she didn't know how to kiss, but this pure touch to his lips was enough for him to forget everything in this world and lose his mind.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3M[/j]Fumino poured all her love for him in that kiss. She didn't know what else she could do to make him believe her words, her feelings and her loyalty. She was so embarrassed. It was her first kiss, and she didn't plan to give it to him the way she did. In her dreams, she had always thought that he would be the initiator of their first special moment; that it would be him who bend closer to her face and steal her first kiss   ***下载/download/otomedream/ダウンロード***   her breathless and carried away in a wonderland.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3E[/j]But there she was…trying to win his heart with a bold way of action. She liked the feeling of his lips against hers. They were so soft, smooth, warm and had their own unique taste. But…

[j]4642NZ RS3J41[/j]…he wasn't returning her kiss. It felt like she was kissing a mannequin. There were no emotions coming from his side and it made her feel like dying. He didn't love her…after all. So why was he playing with her like he did during all that time when she was his student?

[j]4642NZ RS3J3B[/j]Cruel…he was so cruel…but why couldn't she force herself to leave him? Why did she love him so much?
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3O[/j]And he didn't answer her kiss. His lips remained the same position they were when she touched them some minutes ago.

[j]4642NZ RS3J32[/j]He couldn't bring himself together from shock. He was still looking in front of him in one spot, feeling every move of her lips on his. Her bold action made him wonder if she really meant what she was doing.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2O[/j]Every brush of her lips begged him to answer, but his brain refused to send impulses to his body.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J45[/j]He wanted to return her innocent kiss, to take her lips with his and make them dance slowly, but amazement still didn't let him to do it.
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And when he heard as she clenched the pillow-case in her fists, he understood that something was wrong. The next moment she jerked away from him and returned to her sitting position. Her face showed so much sorrow and her eyes looked like she learnt the taste of betrayal.

[j]4642NZ RS3J32[/j]His eyes widened even more when he saw her tears running down her blushed cheeks. She covered her mouth with her palm as a loud sob escaped her throat. Then she cried in despair. Her sobs sounded like squalls. All that time she was looking at his blank yet frustrated-eyed face in disbelief. Why? Why didn't he love her?
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3S[/j]The girl threw her face in her hands and cried so hard that it was suffocating her.
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No…no! Was she thinking that she was rejected? It was his fault! He couldn't take it anymore. He couldn't stand seeing her suffer so much. If she really wanted him to be her beloved, if she really thought that such a terrible person as him could make her happy, then he was giving up! If only his love could bring a smile on her face again, then he was ready to give her everything he had. And if to mention, he had no more strength to hold himself in control any longer. He really loved her and seeing her that miserable and lost was hurting him as well. But the worst thing was that the cause of all her sorrows was him.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2Z[/j]Fumino could feel as her heart was breaking into millions of pieces. She could no longer stay here in his room. He didn't feel the same way about her as she did. Leaving him would really be the best thing to do, though she couldn't imagine her life without him.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2L[/j]She let out a deep breath and was about to stand up from his bed and walk away when she felt as something was pushing her down. The next second the girl was lying on the pillow, her body was pressed to sensei's and his arms were holding her tightly but gently.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3M[/j]His blue eyes looked into her surprised brown orbs. His sharp gaze made her wonder what he was planning to do.
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"I know that there is no way I can be forgiven for what I have made you go through, but if you can, please, forgive me for my selfishness".

His voice was so emotional that it sent electricity to run down her body.
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"I'm the most despicable person in this world for hurting you and   ***下载/download/otomedream/ダウンロード***   you suffer. I was afraid…afraid that my love will make you cry. I used to be a terrible person in the past, but now I'm 100 times worse than that. It's not my love, it's my awful attitude that made you cry. How can I be forgiven after what I have done to you?"

[j]4642NZ RS3J2P[/j]Her eyes watered again. He was holding her so tightly in his warm secure arms. He was telling her those words she longed to hear so much, he was asking for her forgiveness…was it a dream?
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"Why did you do it, sensei? Haven't I told you that I love you?"
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[j]4642NZ RS3J36[/j]He took a deep breath before looking away in shame.

[j]4642NZ RS3J33[/j]"I couldn't believe that you can love someone as brutal as me. You are so pure and innocent…I fell in love with you even when I knew that I had no right to. I was hoping that you would find a better guy and fall in love with him, that's why I tried to create a large space between us, so that you wouldn't feel like betraying your feeling of gratitude towards me when you wanted to leave me. Kurosawa-kun likes you, so I thought-"
[j]4642NZ RS3J3H[/j]
"Why did you decide it all by yourself? Don't you think that I deserved to know what you were planning to do with my life?"
[j]4642NZ RS3J37[/j]
[j]4642NZ RS3J2Y[/j]Her face showed a hurt expression and her eyes were burning with unbearable wish to know the truth.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2Y[/j]He sighed and turned his head to look at her. There was repentance in his eyes.
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"I'm sorry, Fumino-san. I thought it would be better that way. But I was wrong. I tried to imagine my life without you and Teppei and you know what? I got scared. The feeling of loneliness was haunting me during those 3 weeks in Osaka. I couldn't do anything but thinking of you. You were always in my mind. In my every thought, dream and breath. I was lying trying to convince myself that I would be alright without you. I failed. I found out…I can't live without you".
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2M[/j]His hand reached her face and brushed some strands away from her creamy skin. She leaned in for his touch.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3H[/j]"How could you think that I would leave you?" she asked bitterly.

[j]4642NZ RS3J37[/j]"I was stupid and I am now. I can't understand myself how could I even think of giving my irreplaceable treasure to someone else?"
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3Y[/j]"Sensei?" she placed her warm palm on his cheek and looked deep into his eyes. "Tell me what do you feel towards me?"

[j]4642NZ RS3J2N[/j]A soft smile touched his lips as he leaned closer to her face and said:
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3S[/j]"There are only 3 words that can describe my feelings".

[j]4642NZ RS3J41[/j]"And what are they?"
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2Q[/j]Her face was getting redder with every second as she felt his breathing on her mouth.
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"I love you".

[j]4642NZ RS3J40[/j]And without saying anything else, he kissed her.

The girl was melting in his arms. He shifted their positing   ***下载/download/otomedream/ダウンロード***   her lay underneath him, hugging his neck.

[j]4642NZ RS3J2I[/j]He kissed her slowly but tenderly. And she felt dizzy from the emotions and love that he poured in this kiss.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3W[/j]His right hand found her nape and began massaging it. And her hand buried itself in his thick hair, sending shivers down his spine from a pleasurable sensation.

He broke their kiss gently and carefully and laid his head on her shoulder inhaling her sweet aroma.
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She was panting as he took all her oxygen away with his kiss.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J34[/j]His kiss…it was still burning on her lips.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2Z[/j]"I love you" she heard him say.

"I know"
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"I want to repeat it as frequently as possible" he lifted his head a little and whispered in her ear. "I love you more than my life"
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His velvet voice made her blush and sent electric impulses down her body.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2R[/j]"Don't say it like that" she hugged him tighter and turned her head a little to lay a kiss on his smooth-shaved cheek. "Because you are my life, Ka-zu-ma-koi"
[j]4642NZ RS3J3D[/j]
[j]4642NZ RS3J3F[/j]His eyes rounded not because of her innocent act of affection, but because of the way she called him using his given name. He raised his head and looked into her eyes confused. She smiled at him gently and there was so much care and love in her big brown mirrors of soul.

[j]4642NZ RS3J3J[/j]"You have always been the only one I love. And I don't want to call my husband a sensei. You are not my teacher and I'm not your student anymore, my darling, my beloved Kazuma".
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He chuckled briefly.
[j]4642NZ RS3J2Y[/j]
[j]4642NZ RS3J2P[/j]"I couldn't dare to dream that it would turn out like this".

[j]4642NZ RS3J2Y[/j]With those words he hid his face in the crook of her neck and said softly.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2P[/j]"I love you, Fumino, my beloved wife".

[j]4642NZ RS3J33[/j]They stayed like that for a long time before tiredness embraced their minds and bodies and they fell asleep in each other's arms.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2S[/j]That night she didn't have a nightmare. She felt safe and warm next to the person she trusted and loved so much. That night was one of the sweetest in her life.
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OooooO

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[j]4642NZ RS3J2M[/j]When Fumino woke up in the early morning, she found herself nuzzling to someone's warm and muscular body. She opened her eyes and lost herself in two deep oceans of his blue mirrors of soul.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2U[/j]He was watching her sleep with a gentle smile on his face, and when she woke up, he couldn't but say:

[j]4642NZ RS3J2J[/j]"Good morning, sweetheart. Oh how I want to drink your breathing with my lips…"
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2V[/j]And she felt as her rosy lips were claimed softly by his.
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It was embarrassing, but it felt so good to wake up next to him and hear his gentle voice in the early morning. The first thing she wanted to see every day after her sleep was his eyes…his deep-blue eyes that she adored so much.
[j]4642NZ RS3J2T[/j]
[j]4642NZ RS3J3L[/j]"Please, take off your glasses only when we are alone" she told him after he left her mouth in peace.
[j]4642NZ RS3J45[/j]
[j]4642NZ RS3J3V[/j]"Why?" he looked at her confused.
[j]4642NZ RS3J41[/j]
[j]4642NZ RS3J30[/j]"I don't want anyone to see the beauty of your eyes, darling. I want this privilege to belong only to me".
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The girl blushed a little and looked away shyly.
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He smiled with a corner of his lips.
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"I promise…if you continue wearing those young wife's costumes" he added teasingly.
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Her face got bright red in a second.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3J[/j]At that moment the door flew opened and Teppei ran into the room with a cry.

[j]4642NZ RS3J2R[/j]"Maa-kun! Buncha is missing!"

[j]4642NZ RS3J41[/j]But he stopped in the middle of the room and looked at the embracing couple with widened curious eyes.
[j]4642NZ RS3J2S[/j]
"Buncha, do you want to have Maa-kun's baby?"
[j]4642NZ RS3J2J[/j]
[j]4642NZ RS3J40[/j]The said girl's eyes almost plopped out of their orbits as she lost her gift of speech after her brother's question.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J2I[/j]A light-pink coloured sensei's cheeks. He gestured the boy to come closer and patted his head.

[j]4642NZ RS3J2U[/j]"Teppei, I know that after watching those TV movies with Ryuu-sensei you think that you'll become an uncle soon, but it's not like that…for now at least. Though, I really want Buncha to bear my baby".
[j]4642NZ RS3J3T[/j]
The little boy nodded with serious expression as if he fully understood the situation, while Fumino's jaw dropped on her knees as she looked at her husband in disbelief.
[j]4642NZ RS3J3Q[/j]
[j]4642NZ RS3J2Y[/j]"Buncha will be a great mother to your baby, Maa-kun" Teppei smiled broadly and clapped the guy's shoulder.
[j]4642NZ RS3J2P[/j]
[j]4642NZ RS3J43[/j]"Stop it, you two!"
[j]4642NZ RS3J3S[/j]
[j]4642NZ RS3J45[/j]But she was absolutely ignored, which caused her to feel as if she was an alien among the human race.

[j]4642NZ RS3J46[/j]"I know she will" and the grey-blue haired man gifted her with the gentlest gaze she had ever seen in his eyes.

[j]4642NZ RS3J3Y[/j]"Then I'll go and tell Ryuu-sensei about it!"
[j]4642NZ RS3J3F[/j]
Kaji felt as if she was going to lose her conscious.

"No wait, Teppei. Ryuu doesn't need to know it. Let it be our secret".

[j]4642NZ RS3J3F[/j]And the older guy gave his hand to the boy for a shake.

[j]4642NZ RS3J43[/j]"OK!"
[j]4642NZ RS3J3O[/j]
[j]4642NZ RS3J3P[/j]"Now, go and wash your face. Great deeds are waiting for us, remember?"
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They boy nodded and ran out of the room, leaving the two alone.
[j]4642NZ RS3J3A[/j]
[j]4642NZ RS3J3F[/j]"W-what was that just now?"
[j]4642NZ RS3J2K[/j]
[j]4642NZ RS3J36[/j]Ojiro took his shocked wife in his arms and embraced her gently.
[j]4642NZ RS3J2K[/j]
[j]4642NZ RS3J2W[/j]"Don't worry. We will decide it when you are ready. I don't want to force you. So please, take your time to get used to the idea. And don't be afraid"
[j]4642NZ RS3J2Y[/j]
[j]4642NZ RS3J2W[/j]She blushed madly but hugged him back.

"I'm not afraid, just embarrassed. Thank you, Kazuma".
[j]4642NZ RS3J2J[/j]
[j]4642NZ RS3J32[/j]It was still unusual to hear her calling him by his given name. But he really enjoyed it.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J3Q[/j]A soft kiss landed on her forehead.
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It was a beginning of a new life—a real family life.
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[j]4642NZ RS3J34[/j]And she was glad that she didn't listen to her mind that was telling her to leave him. He indeed was her world and she wanted to stay in it forever.

[j]4642NZ RS3J2Q[/j]And he…he still couldn't believe that she was by his side. But he swore to himself that he would do everything to make it be like this forever.
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The happy end
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A/N Thanks everyone who spent their time reading my story. I hope you like it as much as I do!

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[j]4642NZ RS3J3W[/j]Realised by Kit2000andAnna and Nessisstass